Posted by leah on August 06, 1998 at 21:54:37:
In Reply to: How Can I be sure that I have really forgiven? posted by MBCDC on August 04, 1998 at 10:03:58:
MBCDC-
I know what it feels like to be made fun of. I was always so sensitive, and emotional as a child, yet no one took me serious. They just kept telling me to get tough. Anyways, the best advice I can give you is to try and forgive because through forgiveness the Lord can open up newness and an open door to helping others. I never felt like a ever was loved, in fact, I was a pretty darn depressed child, which eventually led me to a life full of pain and rejection. The only thing that keeps helping me is my believe and faith in the Lord. All things are possible through him. Since he suffered and was also terribly treated he understands the pain we have endured. I want it to go away too. I know I cannot forget the years of rejection and pain, but I have to forgive in order to be forgiven, and best of all to obtain a deeper walk with the Lord who does LOVE me like no other can.
I just urge you to pray for the Lord to teach you to forgive, to heal you, to bring you peace and understanding. I need help too. What I feared the most and hated the most was criticism, and I have realized I have done that exact thing to my sons. So it order to break the cycle, I simply have to forgive and break free with the Lord's help. May God bless you. If any one can help us, please respond.
In Jesus name,
Leah