Posted by Theresa on October 10, 1998 at 18:31:05:
In Reply to: Re: Self worth and infidelity posted by Emily on October 09, 1998 at 13:53:29:
Dear Emily:
I am so happy that your anniversary went wonderfully.
You sound very optimistic and happy. Yes, there are
good days, great days, and sometimes not so great days.
But thankfully, you have had enough good and great days
to keep you going. Praise the Lord!
Things are going pretty well here for us. In fact, my
husband surprised me by getting a sitter, and making
reservations at a very nice restaurant downtown. It
was so exciting.....I felt like we were actually dating
again.
Also, I put my wedding rings back on. I put them on
at restaurant and he didn't notice. He is normally so
observant but he didn't see it. This morning I showed
him and he couldn't believe it. He thanked me, told me
he loved me, and cried. We just held each other and both
of us just cried. He said he never wanted to hurt me
ever again. It was a very tender moment. It was nice.
You mentioned that both of you talked about renewing your
vows. Funny how your story is so much like mine. My hus
band has talked about it as well. Right now I can't think
of getting up and pledging myself all over again to him.
I'm having a difficult time enough trying to carry on, at
times, I don't think right now is the time for me to pledge
myself like that again. In time, ..... hopefully, I can.
It sounds so romantic and beautiful.....part of me doesn't
want to risk being so vulnerable. I used to wear my heart
on my sleeve and now after being so wounded, I am hiding
my heart somewhat still. I'm not so open like I used to be.
I'm sure you understand. I pray to God everyday to help me
heal and I also pray for my husband too. Praying for those
that have hurt you does begin the healing process. Why? I don't
really understand how that heals you but it does for me.
Well, I better go. My daughter is bugging me to help her
find some clothing for her Halloween costume. She chose to
be Mary (Jesus' mother). She is going to look so cute. My
son is going to be a Beetleborg. Yes, they are very different
children, inside and out.
Take care,
Theresa