Posted by Emily on October 20, 1998 at 02:48:51:
In Reply to: Re: Self worth and infidelity posted by Theresa on October 10, 1998 at 18:31:05:
Hey T,
It's been a while since my last sign on. I'm sorry but my daughter has been keeping me so busy. She is starting to crawl and boy is she into everything.
It's funny as she grows and matures - our marriage is doing the same thing. We are crawling along ourselves. For a while I was just in a vegatative state - king of numb. I did not really pay attention to much - I just went through the motions. Sort of like a newborn. Now I am crawling. Discovering new and exciting things - but I am also falling and bumping my pride alot.
I love my daughter so completely. I used to love my husband that way. With pride and complete faith and trust. It is different now. It's like I hold a piece of heart back now. I'm not so much a romantic anymore. Actually I have become a little pesimistic.
We have had a very trying couple of weeks financially. It seems as if it could go wrong that it did. Between the fridge going out and my husbands truck breaking down - we have used all of our "rainy-day money". Not to mention most of our patients. The one bright spot is that since I had all of this other stuff to worry about - I did not have time to think about my own marriage problems.
Thank God for distractions.
Emily