Posted by Teresa on July 06, 1998 at 07:46:26:
In Reply to: Re: Child Abuse by family member posted by Doug Showalter on July 02, 1998 at 23:53:56:
Dear Mr. Showalter:
I want to thank you for your posted follow up. I had already taken a few of the steps you mentioned, as I too, realized that real forgiveness had not taken place.
In reply: My son is now 9. Young enough, I feel, to still warrant his mother's protection against any possible harm.
Further, I finally spoke up and explained what happened to some of my other brothers and sisters. The reaction was pretty much what I expected: they didn't believe me. In fact, the rage directed at me was quite eye-opening. I am keeping in mind that they are dealing with their own feelings of hopelessness and sorrow and am trying not to let them stand in my way of finding forgiveness.
I know the truth - as does my sister and God.
I came to the realization over the weekend that I do, in some part, grieve over my sister's upcoming death. At one time we were very close,
and when she wanted to be she could be good company. I will miss that part of her. I also find that I feel sorrow for the ordeal she must be going thru - the physical and emotional pain, the terrors involved - and find that a part of me wishes I could relieve at least part of it for her.
I will continue to pray and search for grace, peace and understanding, and yes, for the sister I once loved. Your thoughts were greatly appreciated and I hope you continue with your web site.
May others who need you find their way....