Posted by John on November 25, 1998 at 22:35:56:
Married for 34 years, born again for 20 years with one daughter soon to be married with a lovely child 10 years old whom I've supported. My wife has had serious breakdowns which devastated my walk with Jesus and she now walks Godly with Jesus with a deep passion for prayer and a leadership role amongst women. I have been accused by her for many years as being the cause of her illness and I require deep deliverance which will take weeks. I can then take my rightful place at her side and love her again an act of my will. Her many suicide attempts with hospitalisation and screaming public humiliation of my demon possession has made me despise her and I live under the same roof only out of support for my daughter and child. 5 years ago, when my wife hanged herself during a Christmas away from hospital, I was so traumatised that I had to find other interests outside church and I met a lovely christian widowed lady, 5 years older than I. We have fallen in love and I am now looking at a future with her and Jesus. I have believed that divorce is anathema to a Godly walk confirmed by gifted speakers on many counselling courses and conventions. I have heard deliverance said so many times that it makes me run harder into the arms of the one I love. I would like your prayers and counsel for my future happiness to set me back on my path with Jesus. Is there no one who can say a kind word for my situation or is the church expecting me to live in abject misery with a wife with no interests outside church. As a businessman who has seen miracles I have never met or read about anyone in my situation. My wife has no intention of working again as she knows her limitations of stress and there are so many people who need her prayers and counsel. Financially, I will be crippled as the courts will adjudge me to be cruel and unforgiving and will expect me to provide for her maintenance and accomodation for the rest of my days. She says that the Lord will look after her. Am I the Lord?