Posted by Kim on August 12, 1998 at 19:10:54:
I have recently started searching for a spiritual side that has been missing or at the very least been hidden very deep inside of me. In talking with people who have introduced me to the Christian way of life, It has been brought to my attention that I am having a really hard time with the roadblock that I have put up of not forgiving myself for decisions that I made that put me in danger and at some point and time did not stop the death of two very special babies. I was very young and have been told it was out of my hands but I can't find peace. If I had made different decisions things would be so different. I have tried to have faith and turn everything over to god but things keep just seem to be going in circles. Why and What can I do to stop surviving and start living?